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Sunday, May 05, 2002 Back from the UP It's nice to come back to warm weather--while I was at Cedar Campus it actually snowed (more than once!). Yay for Michigan. Although I wasn't exactly thrilled about going--I would have rather stayed home, to be perfectly honest--it was definitely a good week for me. Hard, but good. The best part about the week was just getting to know everyone who went from our chapter--spending a week away from the pressures of school and homework was definitely condusive to growth in relationships. I spent a lot of free time playing crazy four-handed piano improvs with a guy named Patrick ("Let's do a Schoenberg!" aka "Let's hit random notes that aren't in the same key!" and "Let's do Phillip Glass!" aka "Let's play lots of notes really fast on top of each other!"). He's an amazing pianist and--here's the crazy part--has never taken lessons. Wow. And on to the tough part of the week... facing the issues that God brought to the forefront: cynicism, skepticism, pride, and placing my worth in "doing" vs. "being". I base my worth on performance, how people view me, the titles I hold, the lines on my resume, etc., which becomes depressing when I'm not performing well; and all this even though I know that I should find my value in the fact that I'm God's child and he loves me no matter what, whether I perform well or fail. Seeing myself through God's eyes is freeing, but it's hard to let go of my performance mentality. I also learned something about the value of honesty, both before God and others, as well. Everyone that went has definitely been stretched. It's a difficult process, but ultimately a good one. ^ Top | 9:16 PM | | | 
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