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Sunday, February 09, 2003 In honor of Randomness's upcoming one-year birthday (can you believe I've been blogging for a year?) on February 28, I'll be sporatically resurrecting some old posts throughout the next couple of weeks. From March 24, 2002 Something Deeper We hide behind so many walls... I was reading Jessica's blog, Jalzee's World, which I've mentioned before, and wondered, How is she able to get so deep when there's a potential for so many people to be reading? When people know you--the real you, the one that hides underneath the things you say, the one that is when no one else is near--they can hurt you more easily, more deeply. We desperately want to be loved, to share our innermost selves with others, but the potential for being hurt is so great. Someone once said that the one thing humanity wants most is to fully know and be known. But how can we do that? I've seen this longing manifest itself in my life, in the lives of my friends--the desire for a significant other, the search for something spiritual, the determination to join a fraternity or sorority... the list goes on and on. You know what? We were created for community. We were created to be loved and to pour out our love in return. Only God can fully know us--but that doesn't mean that everything gets happy and easy from there. Life is still hard. But it's comforting to know that underneath it all, "We're all just the same/We're all just as good, just as bad, and just as distracted/ By the corners of our eyes as our fathers were and theirs before" (Caedmon's Call, from "The Truth"). So I guess if we're willing to be honest with each other we'll find out we're not so different after all. The Need for Community Somehow one of my friends got offended at what I wrote yesterday--I'm not sure what to say. I didn't mean to upset anyone, and I honestly don't know how anyone could be offended at the entry (there's a random guy who has it out to get me too--I had to delete his comments because they were utterly inappropriate). I was trying to be honest about some of the things I see, both in myself in and others. We really are looking for community; some find this in clubs/organizations, some in church, some in frats and sororities (the statement that originally caused such a fuss), some in ways not described here. I'm not implying right now that one is better than the other--though I truly believe that at its best the church, not as an institution but as a group of people trying their best to build each other up, love all, and live as Jesus would, fulfills the need for community in a way that nothing else can--nor am I implying that any community is fake. Even a superficial community (and again, no negative implications toward any group--I swear!) can meet part of the need for fellowship, for each other. It's a part of who we are as human beings. Maybe we don't always realize that we're searching for this love, but if we analyze ourselves, if we are honest, we'll see that we are. That's why we can feel so rejected, so alone. (In our darkest moments we're more honest with ourselves, I think.) However, there really is such a thing as unconditional love, a love that never leaves. I'd love to talk to you about it sometime. :-) ^ Top | 4:25 PM | | | 
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